The Outpost, Arenas Road, 11:00 am - 1:30 pm, 15 dec 2017 The Outpost had it's second public try-out yesterday, again on Arenas Road in Palm Springs, again on a public sidewalk. i arrived at about quarter to eleven and did a quick reconnoiter to find the spot where on tuesday, the proprietor of the … Continue reading Joseph finds a moment’s respite, The Outpost is still looking.
"Pensar es una opción, actuar es vivir" — Marvin Diz i'm moving past the preoccupation i've had with sorting out my thinking about being trans and going back to experiencing it. it feels like a long night has just ended. i look down at my navel and see the pink diamond head of my new … Continue reading The Outpost begins.
28 november 2017 "Living systems... are by definition "open self-organizing systems that have the special characteristics of life and interact with their environment. This takes place by means of information and material-energy exchanges..." — Elaine Parent, 'The Living Systems Theory of James Grier Miller', 1996. in Wikipedia "Autopoietic systems are "structurally coupled" with their medium, … Continue reading autopoiesis.
yesterday i went to my psychologist. we talked. actually as always, i talked and talked and he just patiently waited for me to lose my breath to speak his always authoritative and insightful thoughts. which is why i go to him, every two weeks. because i trust him and he's smart and helpful and means … Continue reading Trans troubles.
i came into this from the wilderness. i have no formal academic background, but i've read a little and i think a lot. since i was a very young person i've been reading to find information that i can apply to my existential difficulties in real life. i've come to learn that these existential difficulties … Continue reading the infinity of my heart, in this world
i'm happy. i think i've begun to get the idea now. the idea being that Men and Women are classes of people, these are identity markers that have nothing to do with any actual individual... not their biology anyway, only their point of view and their "station in life" are indicated by these terms... they … Continue reading calling the Men out.
...been reading a book that will change my life again. convincing me. boys and girls, Women and Men... these stay behind, as the dawn arrives, right on time. 11 november 2017 outside the gates are the wildlands whispered, warned and by dark tales forbidden where one wanders forever to be lost they say, but... inside … Continue reading one finds one
i've done it... i'm not a "Man" anymore. i was never any good at it... so now i've done it, and i'm still lost. what is my sexuality anyway? i don't know... and so... i look into the cloudy grey skies of morning in the cold breeze, and dive into my heart for warmth. ---------------------------- … Continue reading see me in their sky
The world’s definitions are one thing and the life one actually lives is quite another. One cannot allow oneself, nor can one’s family, friends, or lovers — to say nothing of one’s children — to live according to the world’s definitions: one must find a way, perpetually, to be stronger and better than that. — … Continue reading the gifts of Transgender identity
03 november 2017 i'm a girl at least, that much i know at last. there was a time, long time ago at last. i'm over the rainbow through the looking glass. i filled my closet, there's no more room in there. i took my wig off, now my hair's groomed to there. i'm in the … Continue reading i’m going, to be free